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16 days agoAnother thing is how most of media talks about his wife and kids, failing to mention the wife was estranged and they already were separated. The kids are adults too, so the Picture they paint is highly misleading. The reason seems. … manipulative.
That’s a lot of activities. … you sound a bit like me: well I went for a jog (meaning I ran like crazy for 1 and a half hours) I worked only a little bit today (six hrs of demanding physical work) then I met with only one friend (we discussed her divorce) and in the evening I cought up on studies to finish my MA …
I was trying to catch up on life and also internalised the abuse of not beeing enough nor doing enough.
Please learn to be nice to yourself. I had to try out six psychologists before I found one who was able to see behind my mask and allowed me to work through my experiences (abuse, etc. )
I needed to learn to pace myself ( a half hr walk is good enough for your mental health, also I discovered weight training / bodybuilding works well. (I was mostly doing endurance muscles before to “stay lean” and not look “too burly”. That was a bad idea. Fuck the patriarchy.) weight training is even scientifically proven to enhance your brain activity.
Also your reactions sound like you have a little bit of deficiency in some minerals/amino acids/ vitamins. If your health care provider covers it you should get your bloodwork done. I did the same thing when I finally was able to get away - I was constantly tired and unwell because I forgot to eat Cruciferous plants.
Or you can try the poor people route and just eat the supplements you can affford for a month and see if it changes anything. In that case tracking your mood helps you see changes. Mood journal PDF s are easily found on google. Toxic family upbringing has a tendency to make you misremember your own moods and diminish your successes.
Building routines also helps. Every bit of daily (self) care.
Wish you the best.