Hello there, I’m a 21 year old guy from Germany and have very strong depression because of the constant abusive, toxic and manipulative behavior that I received from my parents since I was a kid.

Those strong depression are also the reason why I struggle a lot in life to get anything done by myself and become independent.

I already lived on my own when I was 17 but I failed because of my depression that made me incapable of taking care of myself which is why I moved back to my parents a year ago who only make it way worse for me because they won’t stop hurting me and treating me like a awful person.

I feel so stuck in life and I tried everything from therapy, mental hospital and medications but nothing worked. The burden is just too strong causing me to feel worthless and incapable of living, I have lots of shame, guilt and major anxiety.

It’s like being paralyzed by the fear of life.

My biggest dream always was to get rid of my parents and live independently on my own but I’m just incapable. I wanna get rid of this victim state so bad but I can’t find a way to escape/deal with the hurt.

Is there anything I can do?

  • ERROR: Earth.exe has crashed@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
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    12 days ago

    I feel so stuck in life and I tried everything from therapy, mental hospital and medications but nothing worked.

    Okay I’m not a doctor and, for legal purposes, this is not medical advice, but:

    There are options like TMS and ECT. These are very extreme treatment options, and should be considered a last resort, especially the ECT, and I personally consider them as “experimental”, but these are options if you want to take some risks for a chance to feel better. Try TMS first since its lower risk, then if that fails, try ECT. These can be costly tho, so it depends on entirely if you can even afford it. I thought about it, but I’m not gonna try these yet until I’ve tried every medication.

    As extreme as these treatment options are, its probably better than death or lifelong disability.

    Edit: Talk to a doctor about these options ask for their opinion.

    • obbeel@lemmy.eco.br
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      12 days ago

      The same electroshock therapy that was used to try to convert a trans person in China? I don’t think that’s a good idea.

      • ERROR: Earth.exe has crashed@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
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        12 days ago

        Its a last resort option, and you should talk to a doctor first.

        Just because something is misused, doesn’t mean its inherently bad.

        Antipsychotic medication is typically used by hospitals against people’s will as a form of abuse but it can still be a valid medication when a patient is voluntarily taking them.

        Edit:

        Also:

        ECT =/= Electroshock

        Electroshock is much older and is more barbaric. Modern ECT is much more reliable.

        Still, its considered a last resort option. Its not great, there is a lot of side effects, but its better than death.